A deviant mind with a penchant for kinky reads.
Currently obsessed with M/M Boys-Love-Boys books, Yaoi novel and manga.
Also an occasional Graphic Novel/Comic book and general manga reader.
~ Kynthos-the-Archer ~
Read from October 6th, 2013 till now - Unable to finish
DNF! Might re-attempt. Main character stepping all over my pet peeve.
I could not finish it. Stuck at 20%. The characters was pissing me off. That MC should be wearing a skirt. Oh gawd! his whining is particularly nerve-grating. Yes unfortunately this book has triggered one of my biggest pet peeve - whinny characters especially main characters.
I might try to pick it up again, one fine day, maybe, just maybe. It's not healthy to wish for those brutes that captured the MC earlier had cut his throat instead of letting him off.
Read from January 18 to 23, 2014 — I own a copy, read count: 1
This has got to be the oddest book I've ever read. I am truly lost as to how to rate it. The book was engrossing and I did enjoyed it. Yet it does have its flaws. Do I love that retractable cock and balls enough to rate it beyond 3 stars?
I am going with a 3.5 stars since I am very much infatuated with micropenises now. And I find that I enjoyed the blue balls feeling caused by the high amount of sexual frustrations within the book, although I do lack the proper equipment to really feel that sweet agony. I love it. Love, love the frustrations.
Romance? What romance? It's lust baby. This story is about pure unadulterated L.U.S.T. of horny teenagers. And it's freaking hot in my opinion. You'll get mouthful eyeful of cocks and balls of different sizes and variation attached to young sexy guys frolicking in the shower room. I guarantee you lots of ogling voyeuristic opportunities as there are countless locker room group shower scenes.
THE MC AND HIS QUIRKS
Mitchell an 18-year-old hormonal high schooler is plagued with constant worries over his undeveloped under-develop male package. His peen and balls is so small he could easily be mistaken as a girl. His boyfriend says it looks much like a nipple especially when Mitchell is scared or cold. This is because his mini peen and balls would retracts itself back into his body in such situations. By the way, his boyfriend adores his unique genitalia. Actually his boyfriend is borderline obsessed with it just like I am right now. I loved that he got (view spoiler @ GR). It makes him so sexy, I felt like I was going to get a cardiac arrest from lusting over his peen him. Suddenly fellatio sounds appealing to me again.
Being a teenager, Mitch has boundless sexual energy and he is of course often horny. Hell, he practically has a hard-on 24/7 that he rationalise as a necessity to fill his empty briefs pouch. Personality wise, Mitchell is immature, conflicted and has very low opinion of himself. His self worth is so low that he is practically asking everyone to step all over him making him the perfect target for school bullies. Even his own swim coach abuses and belittles him. Things at home wasn't a bed of roses for him either although he did have a family that loves him.
As I've said, Mitchell is a horny kid. He's highly voyeuristic and was having the time of his life ogling his swim teammates aside from spending half of his time fantasizing being taken especially by a group of guys. Furthermore, he harbours a potentially dangerous kink... (view spoiler @ GR) It makes me cringe at the stunts he pulled just to sate this kink of his. He is such a lusty, kinky and self-absorbed kid. There are times I felt like giving his ass a firm kick when he is being a total jerk due to his turbulent mood swings (very much like PMS). It's not an easy task trying to figure him out. His characterisation is a little bit wonky. At times his sudden switches between the hot and the cold attitude annoys me - his fickle-mindedness drives me up the wall. It's a wonder how his boyfriend could stand him. Then again, I would forgive him of anything when I think of how cute his compact package is. *swoons*
READERS DEBATE AND POINTS TO PONDER
Some readers doubted the plausibility of what the boys did in the school locker room showers. While I agreed that Mr. Young might have over exaggerated it, but this is erotica so what's hot has got to be on the page right? So yea, cum on me with your horse dick all you want, we are in the shower anyways. There is one think I am most curious of during the shower scenes, is that whether it is normal to get a boner when sharing a communal shower with the same sex? Or is it a taboo? Would it trigger raining of fists?
SUMMING IT UP
Yes I am happily soaking up all the hotness and kinkiness of this story not particularly caring about the dramas or romance, especially the romance since there isn't much of it to speak of. I maintain that it's all lust not love. This book is so not for the fluff readers.
I believe I am seeing and appreciating this book for what it is. In my view, it has achieved its goals to titillate me. I do wonder if I am the only one that looks at this book from the erotica angle?
If you are pervy and thinks like a dude, you might just enjoy this book as much as I weirdly did.
Sharing a few of my favorite scenes here. Those that made me hot and bothered and gets stuck in my head:
Spoiler:
1) Frankly I find most of the locker room showers scenes to be hot. Sexy soapy guys sliding and bumping against each other. *sighs contently*
2) The wet dream Mitchell had.I mean how can one forget such a strange dream where every boy looks like they got sexually nullified? And then you get to put on someone else's penis and ball?
3) Mitchell's first time sex with his horse-hung boyfriend.
4) The fisting scene. It was stimulating yet I felt scared for Mitchell cos I thought his boyfriend had accidentally torn something with the amount of pain Mitchell was going through. O.O
5) That freaking hawt fellatio by his boyfriend on his minipeen*experiencing massive blood lost from a gushing bloody nose*
6) The last scene in the communal shower with the swim team. I wanna be there groping him too.
ABOUT THE ENDING
There's a part in the book where Mitchell has a weird wet dream. I think that's the gayest dream ever! I am bringing this up because what happened at the ending was close to the events in that crazy lusty dream of his. It's like a dream comes true for Mitchell. I wanted to be there too, enjoying his erotic body.
Lastly, I must add that the ending was abrupt and it left quite a few unresolved issues. Nevertheless it was an unconventional ending and I do appreciate such endings.
Mitchell has a problem. He’s a little too small where it counts. The guys on the swim team have started calling him Jumbo — a cruel joke — and meanwhile he’s in love with his best friend, Luke. But when Mitchell starts receiving love letters in his locker, can they really be from Luke? Or are they from someone big enough to love him just the way he is?
Read this in a day. A noteworthy record for a slow reader like me. The book wasn't exactly short either, it has 49,950 words to be digested. I am super sleepy today because yesterday I can't stop reading it till 2am in the morning. I can see dark shadows and tired lines under my eyes now. Eeks!
The story starts from a typical John Doe case. An unidentified injured young man found naked and near-death in a gutter. At first glance, it seems to be a rape assault case from the telltale injury he sustained until they noticed the peculiar scars marking both his wrist and his panic-attacks when physically restrained. What further puzzled the hospital staff was John's unintentional display of his extraordinary ability. This wonderment soon caused John a lot of grief and hardship when he found himself whisk away by the military into a secluded heavily guarded facility in the name of protecting the general public.
John suffers not only from total amnesia, he was half-blind as well. Apart from that he has a weak constitution; he was plagued with constant debilitating headaches and seizures. Although he may look frail, he is far from cowardly or defenseless. In fact, I admire his courage and firm determination to regain his rightful freedom. He has the will of a lion and would intelligently pick his fight unless he is overwhelmed by his panic-attacks of course. His stubborn streak at times provide some comical situations apart from landing him in several undesirable circumstances. Stubborn as a mule, yet I love him all the more for this trait of his.
It was such a thrilling adventure following John's energetic multiple escape attempts. I enjoyed the way he would plan his escapes then train himself up in preparation. Watching him determinedly take each painful steps towards regaining his supernatural power in hope to aid his bid for freedom made me very proud of him. His spiritedness earned him many admirers and friends even though most of these friendship was clouded by uncertainties due the complicating relationship as jailers and prisoner. At the end of the day they are soldiers, sworn-to-duty and he is only a lab rat under their care, an unnatural being deemed too dangerous to be free. These friends would not hesitate to shoot if need be.
Speaking of unnatural abilities, what John has was fascinating. Especially how unique his sense of sight is. The author has incorporated this aspect very well. The military was both in awe of John's abilities and was wary of it too. Initially they treated him with relative kindness but as his power grows so does their anxiety and ruthlessness at containing him under their control.
Yes, basically the story revolves around John's life in this military facility and his constant attempts to liberate himself. Some might think it will be boring to read such a simple setup. Yet I find it exciting and compelling. Those who loves good dose of angst will not be disappointed. I am very much invested in John's success in escaping the facility. In short, he has my full empathy and attention.
There are parts where I have some problems with. Like why on earth Colonel Bedville is so bent on keeping John Doe from leaving the facility? Apparently he cared for him and was even doting him at times. Showering John with kind gestures and gifts. I know he is a soldier and all that and having to abide to orders and rules but what he did to John was inexcusable. I actually liked him before what happened during the last quarter of the book. He doesn't feel real to me. He's much like a person with split personality. He is just too contradictory with himself, it confuses me.
To be frank, there are some slight annoyances with the writing and it wasn't as smooth as I would prefer. Nevertheless it did not prevent me from thoroughly enjoying this engaging story.
The John Doe was a riveting tale of survival and human strength. It also highlights our tolerance for differences.
The book may not have the most original storyline but in my opinion it was worth the experience. Especially if you like fantasy books with a touch of adventure, mystery and magic top with delicious servings of angst.
Please keep in mind this is a fantasy story, so be prepared to let your reality go as much as possible when you read it. Since anything goes when it comes with fantasy right?
I must declare that I am bias to this book as I have a fondness for angsty story with wrongfully incarcerated prisoners. The combination of fantasy, mystery and magic was an added bonus.
I know some complained about the ending, but to me it was a great way to end it. I loved it.
BOOK DETAILS:
Title:The John Doe Author:Veronice Ceccarelli Publication Date: July 10th, 2011 Type: Novel, 49,950 words (approximate) Genre: Contemporary Fantasy Fiction, Mystery, Supernatural, Adventure Tags/Keywords:amnesia, abuse, action-packed, adventure, angst, attempted-murder, restrains, brave protagonist, captive, captivity, confinement, captured, contemporary, disability, blindness, drugging, fantasy, heterosexual, hfn-happy-for-now, medical condition, weak constitution, military, army, prisoner, rebellious protagonist, resentful-indignant, restricted freedom, special abilities, magic, stubborn character, supernatural, thriller, suspenseful, young man, mystery
Description:
They would have liked to know who the John Doe was, but more importantly they wanted to know what he was. And what was his power, the power they did not understand? He could not be allowed free. He was not an ordinary man.
John thought he was an ordinary man, but maybe a hollow man, without memory, without a past. That strange power they spoke of - He didn’t quite believe in it, but if he was ever to find freedom, he had to first find his power. He wanted to go home. He didn’t know whether he had a home, whether he had a family, but still, he wanted to go home.
Might be worth a try. Since I like such a theme. Plus, it's short.
BLURB: They would have liked to know who the John Doe was, but more importantly they wanted to know what he was. And what was his power, the power they did not understand? He could not be allowed free. He was not an ordinary man.
John thought he was an ordinary man, but maybe a hollow man, without memory, without a past. That strange power they spoke of - He didn’t quite believe in it, but if he was ever to find freedom, he had to first find his power. He wanted to go home. He didn’t know whether he had a home, whether he had a family, but still, he wanted to go home.
Recommended for: Just pick it up. It would do you whole lot of good.
Read from December 24 to 25, 2013 — I own a copy
This brought love and Christmas to me. Warms my heart and tickle my funny bone. Plastered a goofy grin on me.
Ryan's first word describing Jamie to his mom was, soft. That goofy grin of mine started right at that point onwards. Lol. Ryan wasn't exactly a perfect person, he is filled with insecurities and was a little too self absorbed to see things around him clearly. He should really thank Mrs. Keats his homeroom teacher for setting up that Secret Santa gift exchange challenge.
That event did a hell lot of good drawing Ryan out of his protective shell, helping him to look deeper than the skin and also to let his true self shine. I'll say, Jamie brought out the best in Ryan and of course Ryan's loving understanding mom must be credited as well for the undying support she gave.
The author did great with Ryan's characterization, he is very much a believable teenager trying to find his own footing in life, was troubled by his sexuality and being too overly sensitive to public judgment. Although I didn't get to know Jamie as much due to the fact that the story was entirely in Ryan's POV, but he still managed to endear himself to me. Jamie might look effeminate and soft as everyone including how Ryan first perceived him yet he is stronger than anyone even the bullies and Ryan. This is because he stand tall and proud of who he is. He acknowledges his true self and wouldn't hide like Ryan did just to fit in. At least he isn't living a lie and I admire his courage and sense of self-value to stand firm against unjust negativity directed at him daily. He is beautiful inside out. He shines, and this is what attracted Ryan to him.
Ryan's sudden discovery of his fetish was priceless. There are many adorable moments in this book such as the aforementioned embarrassing fetish discovery, giggly chapstick exchange and the Great Shoe Operation was utterly romantic!
Here's my assortment of feelz for this book...
Fell in love with the Hoobajoob socks monkey I want him please? Found him on the internet and fell in love with him. He makes me wish I could sew well.
Haz too much happy magic mushrooms
Touching, heart-warming moments worth a thousand words
Moments of intense annoyance over some idiots!
Lastly, bone-meltingly sweet and romantic moments which I took my time to savor each morsel
Then, I pen this short note....
Dear Author,
Thank you for bringing Christmas and love to me.
With tears of joy,
Kyn
That ending was perfect and most meaningful. It highlights a message that bigoted fools are unworthy of your time. So don't waste your life over these shallow minds. Go live life and love without regrets as it should be.
Pick up this book, read it and love it!
BOOK DETAILS:
Title: Sock it to Me, Santa! Author: Madison Parker Publication Date: November 12th, 2012 Type: Short Story, 13,290 words Genre: M/M, Gay, LGBTQ, Coming Out, Romance, Contemporary, Young Adult Fiction Tags/Keywords:student, school, closeted, coming out, first love, having a crush, falling in love, romance, holidays, christmas, secret santa, gift exchange, contemporary, adorable character, adorable story, humor-comedy-fun, feel-good-story, effeminate male, engrossing, insecurities, low confidence, inspiring, no sex, realistic, twink, young adult, young man, angst
Description:
Ryan is assigned to Jamie Peterson for his class's secret gift exchange. If word gets out that he has to make a handcrafted gift for flamboyant and openly gay Jamie, Ryan will be the laughing stock of the school. It's a good thing no self-respecting boy would be caught dead in a craft store, because otherwise he'd be at risk of being spotted when his mom drags him to her weekly craft workshops. He hopes Jamie will appreciate all the trouble he's going to for this assignment. Finding the perfect gift is gonna be tricky. Jamie deserves something good, though, after all the crap he has to put up with at school. At least, Ryan tells himself that's the reason he's putting so much thought into the gift. It couldn't be that he has feelings for Jamie, could it?
Recommended by: I am a fan of Kichiku Neko & TogaQ. Love all of Guilt|Pleasure's production
Recommended for: Pick it up if you like - Taboo, Dark Psychological Criminal theme
Read from November 20 to 22, 2013, read count: 1
5 Stars for being such a Unique Taboo Read that Scrambles My Senses
Blood relation, just how important is that? How strong could that bond be? Is it possible to love a total stranger? Especially if that stranger shared an unbreakable bond with you?
Gabriel developed an unhealthy obsession with a man, a stranger he had hoped to get to know better and ultimately be loved by. Uriel was the father he had longed for ever since he was a child. He was bitter when he found out Uriel has a happy little family of his own now and a favored son two years his junior upon leaving his mom behind. He hated the other woman who took away what should have been his and his alone. No one should compete with him for Uriel's attention and affection. Uriel owed him that. And he will make sure his father understands it even if he has to hurt him in order for him to learn. Afterall as the saying goes "spare the rod, spoil the child", an ironic phrase for them but it is one Gabriel deemed as the right recourse to steer his Father's affection towards him.
What transpired between this pair of long-lost father and son upon their ill-fated meeting was supremely taboo and disturbing enough to make you feel so wrong and conflicted for even reading it, yet you will find it hard to stop. You just had to know why, why Gabriel did what he did, and to find out what would Uriel do to salvage both of them from any further destruction? Do we really owe that much to our own child? How much are we willing to sacrifice for own flesh and blood?
Love can be the most beautiful thing in this world. Love can also be the ugliest thing when directed by a distorted perception. Love can be hellish. To a man like Gabriel, to love is to possess wholly, to claim full ownership, to be kept close by his side irregardless of consequences. I am still unsure if all those vile acts Gabriel subjected on Uriel is even remotely redeemable.
Since the story is narrated all by the perpetrator himself, we would get to feel his every volatile emotion and his twisted reasoning. At times, the intensity of his insanity makes me shudder with disbelief and horror. Books of such nature fascinates me till no ends. Being in the mind of a delusional, unstable person gives our mind such a great workout. Needless to say, there's never a dull moment in this book. My adrenaline was kept high throughout the reading.
I must say, the angst in this story is just superb. It has precisely the right amount to keep me satisfied and on a constant emotional high.
Okay, to be on the blunt side, this is a taboo book and it is ILLUSTRATED. I repeat, IT IS ILLUSTRATED. The taboo acts are ILLUSTRATED. There, I got it off my chest and feeling much better already. I can assure you that TogaQ's artwork is to die for and the illustrations are aptly applied. It heighten the experience and shake up our emotion. If you wanna know, there are a total of 19 illustrations in this book. I wish I could show some of it here but I had to refrain from spoiling the story and lessening the shock effect. Plus I would hate to be flagged by those well-meaning-GR-police. I must clarify that not all of the illustrations are smutty, there are a couple of those safe-for-work types too.
If you are those who aren't easily disturbed by taboo reads that contains high level of incest with a dose of dark psychological and criminal theme, then this book should be a winner for you. Angst addict would definitely adore it too. As for those looking for sweet romance.. please look elsewhere. The only romance to be found here is an utterly twisted one.
On account of how much this story had lodged itself deep within me, a 5 stars rating is a given thing. In fact, most books that graces my 5 stars shelf are those that had left its indelible mark on me.
Side note to all: For sake of world peace and personal safety; NEVER EVER have unprotected sex, NEVER EVER forsake your own children. OR you might just find yourself reliving Uriel's nightmare.
[ I ran my fingers through his hair; it was soft. There was a kind of excitement that went through me then that felt sexual. This man was my father. He used to belong to someone else and now he belonged to me.]
BOOK DETAILS:
Title:Father Figure Author:Kichiku Neko (Author), TogaQ (Illustrator) Publication Date: November 2011 Publisher: Guilt|Pleasure (Doujinshi Circle) Type: Illustrated Novel - approximately 31,000 words, 19 illustrations Genre:M/M, Gay, Taboo, Incest, Dominance-Submission, Noncon, Psychological Thriller, Drama Tags/Keywords:
Braingasm feels so divine. It's SO gud, I shivers with delight.
The story leads you into a dreamscape of an unstable mind, you will never really know which is real and which is just a figment of a confounded mind.
The author has the ability to draw her readers into her character's surrounding and make them feel what they felt. Her words are focused and never excessive, just the right amount to nudge us along.
I could really feel the sense of angst and powerlessness displayed by Drew the protagonist, it gave me such thrills and lovely goosebumps. Makes my heart squeeze with just the right amount of empathy not interfering with my deviant side wishing for more distressing situations for Drew.
If rape and suicide is a trigger for you, be forewarned then. The suicide attempt scene was almost poetic the way it was presented. On the other hand, the rape scene was quite intense and real. Made me wanted to gouge the perpetrator's eyes out, step on it, squish it to pulp.
In short, this book is DEFINITELY for me. Half the time while reading it, I was fretting over when that kinky straitjacket on that cover is going to ever come into play or will it not be at all? Gasp, I would have been devastated if the latter was the case. You see, I have an obsession with bondage, the stricter it is the better it was for me. I was saved from my impending depression when Ms. Waites delivers a highly stimulating straitjacket bondage sex scene combine with a sling harness to boot! Oh, how I love her.
So okay with the kinky stuff, the next point which appeals to me was the Asylum/Mental hospital setting which incidentally was another fascination of mine too.
Hence, how could I not love this book? It has such an appealing and potent combination with just the right formulation for me:
[Asylum] + [Straitjacket] + [Drugging] + [Noncon/Dubcon] + [Sinister Doctor] = Lovely amount of Angst and Powerlessness
- End Result: a one way ticket to Cloud9 forever
Actually, what further cemented a 5 stars rating was the ending. It was non-stereotypical as it dares to be different yet staying true to the story and its theme.
Ms. Waites has once again delivered another memorable piece of dark erotica. Her previous work, Gamble Everything was also a fine example of quality dark erotica. To me, Ms. Waites has successfully captured the essence of dark erotica; It's arousing yet so wrong on many levels.
It is rare to find good dark erotica that stays true to its theme. Most would just plaster on a HEA/HFN no matter how unnatural it was for the story and worst off, some turned downright fluffy at the end! There are also those with the misconception that being dark and erotic means torture porn all the way. I find it hard to be aroused when the other party isn't the least bit enjoying it that's why I find forced seduction to be the best balance.
If you love dark, all-shades-of-wrong kind of noncon cum borderline dubcon stories, this is for you.
They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me.
Drew thinks he isn't crazy just outvoted by those around him even his own parents. I'll let you be the judge of it.
Description:
Drew's not crazy. The dreams he has at night of his doctor restraining and dominating him can't be true. Just because he's a patient in a mental health facility doesn't mean he's crazy. Right?
This 8200 word short contains explicit content, including: m/m, dubious consent, oral and anal sex. All characters are aged over 18 years.
So gonna eat this up and savor every moment of it.
This is going to be a good kinky ride. The ultimate fantasy comes true.
I hope for ample restrains in this book - the naughty kinds. Already loving that straitjacket on the cover.
Since loved this author's first work, Gamble Everything to bits. I am pretty sure this one would go on my favorites shelf as well given that I really like her writing style.
